joycean wild abandon and a musing molly bloom--

some days you feel like you are opening so many doors only to find them shut in your face--other days you might find that there is someone standing there holding the door open for you and you trip on your way in because it is so wonderful to fall...fall...fall through space.

some days you feel like you have both feet firmly planted on the ground. immovable. other days you are literally swept off your feet and find yourself flying with your head in the clouds.

some days you feel like doing something completely different but priorities cause you to stay put. other days there is someone offering you a get-away car or a train or private plane and you hop on board 'cause you want to see what it feels like to move...move...move through space.

some days you wish someone would see a window into you but they are blinded by their own reflections in the mirror. other days someone notices something about you, say your love of candy and effortlessly, they offer you some twizzlers or spicy olives as a snack.

some days you wish life could be as imaginative as your dreams. some days are beyond your wildest imaginations.

some days you would like to say 'yes' but all that comes out of your mouth is no. other days you give over and give in to reckless abandon and begin to live again. (like molly bloom's speech at the end of ulysses)

some days are not comparable to others they need to be highlighted and turned into postage stamps so they can be innocently waiting in mailboxes across the land.

some days you wax nostalgic for the past and other days you hope for a brighter future and then there are those days you wish time would stop... so you can stay in that place forever.

so hard to live in the moment. to be so present tense.

some people really live their lives with wild abandon and others submit, like drones, citing that they have no other choice.

"I put my arms around him yes and drew him down to me so he could feel my breasts all perfume yes and his heart was going like mad and yes I said yes I will Yes" (Joyce 783).

is this the kind of day are you having? did you say yes?

music: elliot smith--say yes...